| Saturday, February 19th, 2005 |
Feb.19.2005
(11:30 PM) |
haha i lied i am no longer updating this journal =)
if you love me though you will add my new user name ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) ___x___broken and if i feel i can trust you i will add you back!
please <3 Current Mood:  HAHA....sucks to be youCurrent Music: Ludacris: What Your Fantasy |
Feb.19.2005
(9:45 PM) |
woo-hoo
GOOD JOB TODAY GUYS!!!
q...tony...and anthony all got 1st
and matty got 4th
also wess got 4th =) Current Mood:  blahCurrent Music: Usher: Burn |
| Wednesday, February 16th, 2005 |
Feb.16.2005
(11:37 AM) |
new journal
i have another journal, but its only for the friends i trust and care about...no more of this open ended shit. ___x___broken
i will still however keep this one but i will only update in here when i can handle shit or when nothing is really going on in my life!=) |
Feb.16.2005
(4:54 AM) |
b-days...YaY!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
ELI (sweet 16)
TOM MILLER (sweet 16)
COTTEC (big 18 =))
ASH
AMANDA WILSON (yesterday...sweet 16)
and if i forgot anyone else happy b-day to you too =) Current Mood:  sadCurrent Music: TLC: No Scrubs |
| Tuesday, February 15th, 2005 |
Feb.15.2005
(10:42 PM) |
bitch...bitch...bitch REVENGE SUCKS!! what did i ever do to you??
i love how people who read your journal take everything you say and turn it into revenge
around 5 i went to cristinas and then her daddy drove us to the swim meet around 5:35. i thought it was gonna be a w.o.n.d.e.r.f.u.l meet. however was i ever wrong =(....there wasnt enough timers so matt forced me and cristina to time. then we got one more timer and cristina didnt wanna time so she didnt, but i still made her stay with me. umm ok that was fine it didnt bother me that much that i had too time. its just that people there know too much shit about me. well hold on lets put it this way. when i write in my journal i am too open minded >:o honestly i need to think before i write, because "someone" took what i wrote to kevin and used it against me and deceided to flirt with him the whole damn meet. she knew it pissed me off too....tears started rolling down my face uncontrolling, but enough about that moment </3 i know i need to really start listening to people. i dont need kevin to be happy. however there is just something about him that i cannot let go of. :'( after the meet we went to coney and our plan was to sit with everyone well so i had thought. matt took control and deceided we sit away from everyone so i wouldnt be even more pissed off than i was (THANKS MATT). it then imediatley (sp) turned into story time with heather. ohh man i loved telling the story i was being forced to tell, but it seemed like no1 was really listening in the end so i am like whatever i am done. then markie came and sat by us =) man ohh man did i miss that kid. he probably doesnt really realize it, but i missed talking to him and he really did make my day a whole lot better! when i got home i talked to my g-ma for a bit because she had noticed something was wrong and i deceided to tell her the story....
i have learned that people are right. i should just learn how to listen, but i cant. kevin is ugly but i cannot see that damnit. i just wish i could, but have any of you ever noticed he looks like a monkey? ha maybe thats why...a monkey is my favorite animal=( damnit i hate love it hurts soo effin much. i say i turn leziban. honestly no guy can ever effin hurt me again. however girls have too much damn drama in their lives:'( so either way i am screwed and there or not many lezibans in this world any more. i just wanna be happy. the sound of your voice used to make me smile now it just wants to make me cry
I HATE YOU....i wish i could believe that =(
and for the lil bitch that turned what i said into revenge you are off my effing "friends list"...>:o Current Mood:  stay away...i warn youCurrent Music: Aerosmith: Dont Wanna Miss a Thing |
Feb.15.2005
(2:12 PM) |
i'm down for a one night stand =)
ya practice was ok...i was really hyper at first, but then i got kinda tired. coach syswerda (sp) is honestley the funniest guy i know!natalie i loved reading your magazine at practice lmao!!! nothing much is really happening right now!! in like 3 hours though i am gonna go to cristina's house and her daddy is then gonna take us up to the swim meet <3. YAY i am soo excited. then after the the meet i think i am going to coney with the team. haha technically i am not really invited, but i am gonna go with cristina and matt so kiss my ass x.o. if anyone has a problem with it. =)
i really dont wanna watch diving though. it effin creeps me out. i hope no1 gets hurt, or i will seriously cry... ohh man i got the chills people on the tv keep talking about spiders =( and aHHhhHH!!! ya wow i am done i am creeping myself out.
tomorrow we are going to mott for team districts. really i am excited i just hope Q beats Wes or i will cry. i have realized every time i am on my period i complain about everything, and i just wanted to apologize for that. then again if i complain other people wont have too...WoW i have nothing to talk about. i wrote you a poem though =/
umm ya i would really appreciate it if people would stop commenting anonymously in my journal. just to clear a few things up i am not a whore....i do not eff every guy i see...i am still a virgin...i did not give rich a hj nor a bj thats discusting (sp)!!! ya the next anonymous commenter i get that offends me this shit is becoming freidns only. i am effin sick and tired of it >:o
sorry if i bitched at anyone yesterday or today...i really didnt mean it Current Mood: shut the eff upCurrent Music: BSB: The One |
| Monday, February 14th, 2005 |
Feb.14.2005
(6:10 PM) |
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Feb.14.2005
(12:42 AM) |
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!
i hope you all get what you want ;-)
<3..i want you to want me like i want you Current Mood: awake |
| Saturday, February 12th, 2005 |
Feb.12.2005
(10:44 PM) |
yet another
Think about this... You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.
1. At least 2 people in this world LOVE you so much they would DIE for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A SMiLE from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you BELiEVE in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you received. FORGET about the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
Repost this if you have a great friend or someone special, and take the time to let them know that they are great. Current Mood: blahCurrent Music: Usher Ludacris & Lil Jon: Lovers and Friends |
Feb.12.2005
(8:13 PM) |
Apology Letter
Dear everyone who is/was mad at me for events that happened at the LakeShore Meet,
I am sorry to everyone I hurt during the meet at Lakeshore. I never thought I would still be paying for that "mistake." I dont think my friendship will ever be the same with a selected f-e-w- people.
If there is any way I could go back in time. I definetly would. I know everyone has told me this before and i am NOW only starting to realize: Rich is someone who can hurt me. While he thinks its all fun and games! this is not my first time, nor my second time I was hurt by him. I wish i would have learned the first time....I dont need him. There are soo many other people in this damn world who would treat me one hundred times better then he ever would. He sasy he doesnt want to hurt the one he loves and I understand. However I do not understand how you can hurt others around you.
I really am sorry from the bottom of my heart. I should have listened, but I am like my daddy....I always (think) I know best.
I hope you all can find it in your heart to forgive me....
</3 Heather
( Why I Wrote the Above Information )
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: 50 Cent: Candy Shop |
Feb.12.2005
(6:20 PM) |
1st time since 1981
wrestlers you guys all rock my world!!!...MAC GOLD CHAMPS
update later when i have more time <333 Current Mood: ecstaticCurrent Music: We Are The Champions :-) |
| Sunday, February 6th, 2005 |
Feb.06.2005
(12:10 AM) |
EXCITED <3 Current Mood: lovedCurrent Music: Kc & JoJo: All My Life |
| Saturday, February 5th, 2005 |
Feb.05.2005
(10:29 PM) |
yea...right...ok
1. Copy and post in your LJ.
2. BOLD anything that is true.
3. Leave plain anything that is not true
001. I miss somebody right now.
002. I watch more tv than I used to.
003. I love olives.
004. I love sleeping.
005. I own lots of books.
006. I wear glasses or contact lenses. (suppose too)
007. I love to play video games.
008. I've tried marijuana.
009. I've watched porn movies.
010. I have been in a threesome.
011. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
012. I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
013. I have acne free skin.
014. I like and respect Al Sharpton.
015. I curse frequently.
016. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
017. I have a hobby.
018. I've been told I have a nice butt.
019. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
020. I'm smart.
021. I've never broken anyone else's bones.
022. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
023. I love rain. (cuz no1 knows when u r crying)
024. I'm paranoid at times.
025. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
026. I need money right now.
027. I love sushi.
028. I talk really, really fast sometimes.
029. I have fresh breath in the morning.
030. I have semi-long hair.
031. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
032. I have at least one brother and/or sister.
033. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
034. I shave my legs.
035. I have a twin. (some say me and amy look alike?)
037. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
038. I like the way that I look.(sometimes)
039. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
040. I know how to do cornrolls.
041. I am usually pessimistic.
042. I have mood swings.
043. I think prostitution should be legalized.
044. I think Britney Spears is pretty.
045. I have cheated on a significant other.
046. I have a hidden talent. (deep throating a sucker)
047. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. (depends)
049. I am currently single.
050. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
051. I enjoy talking on the phone.
052. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
053. I love to shop.
054. I would rather shop than eat.
055. I would classify myself as ghetto.
056. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
057. I'm obsessed with my LJ!
058. I hate everyone. (sometimes...currently)
059. I'm a pretty good dancer
060. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington.
061. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
062. I have a cell phone.
063. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
065. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
067. I have never been in a real relationship before.
068. I've rejected someone before.
069. I currently have a crush on someone.
070. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
071. I want to have children in the future.
072. I have changed a diaper before.
073. I've had the cops called on me before.
074. I bite my nails.
075. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
076. I'm not allergic to anything deadly.
077. I have a lot to learn.
078. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
079. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
080. I am very shy around the opposite sex.
081. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
082. I have at least 5 away messages saved.
083. I have tried alcohol before.
084. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
085. I own the "SOUTH PARK" movie.
086. I have avoided doing work to post on Livejournal.
087. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
088. I enjoy country music.
089. I have one best friend.
090. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
091. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
092. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
093. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
094. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
095. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
096. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
097. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
099. I'm happy as of this moment.
100. I have gone scuba diving
101. Had a crush on somebody you have never met.
103. I play a musical instrument.
104. I strongly dislike math. (o god dont get me started :-))
105. I'm procrastinating on something right now.
106. I own and use a library card.
107. I fall in "lust" more than in "love."
108. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest things ever.
110. I'm obsessed with the tv show "Americas Next Top Model."
111. I am resentful that I have to grow up.
112. I am an entirely different person around different people.
113. I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often.
114. I think ramen is the best kind of food in the whole world.
115. I am suffering of a broken heart. (sorta)
116. I am a nerd. ha
117. No matter where I am or who I'm with, I always seem to be lonely.
118. I am left handed and proud of it.
119. I often change who I am to fit in.(when i dated kevin)
120. My heart resides below my feet.
121. I am a Senior in High School.
122. I enjoy smoothies.
123. I have gastritis.
124. I have nothing better to do with my time.
125. I am listening to Radiohead right now.
126. Most people call me by my middle name.
127. I once stole a music stand.
128. Pie confuses me.
129. I love NASCAR! (hahaha err body loves NASCAR)
130. I own over 200 CDs.
131. I work 7 days a week.
132. I need a job.
133. Straight boys kissing is hott.
134. People confuse the hell out of me often.
135. I'm as real as it gets(sometimes) Current Mood: i dont get itCurrent Music: Usher: Caught Up |
Feb.05.2005
(7:12 PM) |
i am sorry i am not perfect
I HATE HOW PEOPLE JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS
i am starting to realize why i have more guy friends than i do girl friends. girls like to stab you in the back. especially your best friends (well people you though were your best friends). they talk about you behind your back or lie right to your face. i just love it....
ThUrSdAy: i was really hyper all day in school. then at the wrestling meet i was still really hyper!!!:-) i am not sure why the hell people jumped to conclusions though. i am sorry i like to flirt? i just wish there was a way i could make everyone see nothing happened between me and rich. i may have been "seeing" some1 from mott but we are NOT dating! maybe i should have quit being the wrestling manager when i first said i was going too. then shit would have never been said and i wouldnt feel like i did something wrong. :-/ fRiDaY: school was pointless. one of my best friends is mad at me and i dont even understand why. she didnt talk to me at alll. we sorta had a note going around but that didnt last long. at lunch i sat with anthony, jeffy boy, and wilson. it was just a weird lunch and ya...we are walking out of lunch and wilson made me take her capichino (sp) out and it spilled all inside my hoodie:-( and damn was it hott!! so i borrowed anthonys hoodie yay! after school i went tp get my hair done it turned out ok...i didnt really care for it that much.:-( the dance was OK(my eye seemed to keep focusing on someone inperticular (sp) though. and ohh boy did HE look georgous...oopsy i mean) but i am never bringing any1 from another school ever ever again. and if i do i am gonna make sure he knows someone first. he was there w/me the whole damn time and i felt like my privacy was being invaded. it was kinda creepy. after the dance i got home around 11:30 and called anthony to get his address and then we went to jeffy boys soccer game. :-) all i have to say was it was a long ass night and i wasnt thinking straight....lmao his team landed up winning (i think) 8-6 ha no but idk all i know is they won. jeffy scored 1 goal..:-( he owes me 3 more though. ummmm yea:-) ToDaY: i got at at like 1:30 and really did nothing all day besides text message anthony. woo hoo!! dont ask i dont know what i am feeling right now....movies are a good thing to watch to get your mind off some things i guess, but dont watch something to do with love if your confused about the whole damn thing cause you may cry a bit...
love you...<3 Current Mood: angryCurrent Music: Usher: Nice and Slow |
| Friday, January 28th, 2005 |
Jan.28.2005
(11:42 PM) |
PLEASE
im bored and you are too (if you are reading my journal)...so your gonna fill this out for me=)
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
*I died from suicide:
*I said I liked you:
*I kissed you:
*I lived next door to you:
*I stole something:
*I was hospitalized:
*I ran away from home:
*I got into a fight and you were not there:
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT ME:
~Personality:
~Eyes:
~Face:
~Hair:
~Clothes:
~Mannerisms:
WOULD YOU:
-Be my friend:
-Have sex with me:
-Lie to me to make me feel better:
-Spread rumors about me:
-Keep a secret if I told you:
-Loan me cash:
-Hold my hand:
-Take a bullet for me:
-Keep in touch:
-Try and solve my problems:
-Love me:
-Date me: Current Mood: excitedCurrent Music: O-Town: All or Nothing |
Jan.28.2005
(7:19 PM) |
slowly healing
its simple you will forever be out of my life </3....wow i cannot believe i am saying that, but i have notice you were only good to me while we were dating and now its like ummm NOO!! i really dont appreciate the shit you have said to me, but i will forgive you just because i hate hating people for stupid shit. you have truly changed me but it hurts way too much to be your friend. however i dont want to lose you. you confuse the shit out of me and you make me wanna....
yesterday we had a league quad at madison it started out awesome, but then ya by the end of the meet i was crying because s-o-m-e people are dumb.
school YUCK!!! 1st hour read the usa today?..and a yellow book. 2nd hour checked homework and got a worksheet (HOMEWORK) 3rd hour did a study thingy with jack and candice lunch i ate (be proud of me) 4th hour movie and notes (tried to sleep but marshall was being gayy) 5th hour presentations...they sucked mine was tooo short. 6th hour checked in homework and took a poll on people who are sick.
p.r.a.c.t.i.c.e. was ok..went to a computer lab with natalie and nikki so natalie could finish her BST work. i wore matt's hoodie. man at practice did i love him i was soo cold and he made my day by letting me wear it =) YYAAY!!!!!!=P
tonight i was gonna go to megans party, but i wouldnt be able to stay the night...soo then i wouldnt be able to drink. i just deceided to stay home...nikki was gonna come over, but i guess her mom is making her go to the mall with natalie to find a dress for sweetheart ookkk. jackie was gonna come over too, but i deceided to have NOONE over and have a night to myself =) i am watching Napoleon Dynamite. haha never seen the movie but its already funny as hell. tomorrow i have to be at the school for 7:30 haha mott has to be at their school for 7:00 because the bus leaves at 7:05. soooo excited get to see wesley tomorrow=) *note to self dont forget the guest pass for sweetheart tomorrow when i go to the meet.*
ya ok i am out my movie is getting reallllyy good and my phone is ringing again... Current Mood: excitedCurrent Music: MOVIE....Napoleon Dynamite |
Jan.28.2005
(6:03 PM) |
If I...
( IF YOU )
Current Mood: jealous
Current Music: Jo-Jo: Leave (Get Out) |
| Wednesday, January 26th, 2005 |
Jan.26.2005
(8:24 PM) |
GUESS WHO HAS A DATE TO SWEETHEART??
ME!!!!:-) Current Mood: YAYYY!!!Current Music: Nelly: Dilemma |
| Sunday, January 23rd, 2005 |
Jan.23.2005
(7:36 PM) |
blah... Current Mood: blankCurrent Music: Hilary Duff: Fly |
| Saturday, January 22nd, 2005 |
Jan.22.2005
(9:47 PM) |
......
mid term week sucked ass...i got a d in 1st hour (geo), 2nd (intro marketing) hmm i really dont know a c maybe (if i am lucky), 3rd (english)hour b, 4th hour (entpreneurship) on 1/2 of it i got an a- dont know about the other, 5th hour (history) d :-/ and 6th hour (bio) 2nd highest grade in the class... haha still not good c-, but thats without the curve. mr. g said he may curve up to 10 points and if he does i get a b-...YEAH BUUDDDDDYYY!
i hate mids with a passion..i cant take test worth anything. i wish i was smart. (hahaha ya ok that will never happen) maybe i should have studied more for history and bio instead of going to the swim meet on thursday.
i am sick like no other..my temp is 104.2 and rising. just an hour ago it was 103.8. godi hate being sick. my thermastat is set at 87 and yet i am still cold!:-(
man i was commenting in someones jrnl and i realized sweetheart is in 13 days...WOW!! Current Mood:  sickCurrent Music: Hilary Duff: Dangerous To Know |
